insecurity.

I'm just human. a normal one. i'm insecure. i have doubt. i got confused.
a lyric from Adele- Someone like you tells us, "sometimes it last in love, sometimes it hurt instead"
yes, i agreed with that. now i'm in this very stable relationship. i have him and he have me. we have each other. but i sometimes wonder, will it always stay this way? like what Taylor Swift said, "forever and always"
sometimes i look at him and wonder, can i see honesty in his eyes? people said, relationship without trust is like a car without fuel, you can always stay in it but you'll not going anywhere. i don't want a relationship that bring me to no-where. i believe in happy ending, i believe in marriage.
and i believe in faith. i believe He is the one who will decide everything for me. i can just plan and hope but its up to him to make it real. it has been two years dating the same guy, it has been two years of our love story. within this period of time, a lot of thing happen between us. its not always sunny day it sometimes rain with thunder and lighting.
sometimes, i feel very scared. what if i make the wrong choice? what if he is not the one i'm fated to be? what if we have to be apart one day? but i believe somewhere somehow everything happen for reason. some people stay and some people leave and if he meant to be someone who have to leave, it will hard for me but i do believe there are reason for that.