I'll make it short .

Very soon from now , I'm going back to UITM already . :'(
sad i gotta leave my home so soon . but yeah , no choice . I got to attend our guiding session held at the KDCA , Penampang . It was for The Harvest Festival.
So , by tomorrow i'll be leaving home . i'm going to miss here . bet me .

The new semester is about to start . Yes , those hectic schedule again . I'm coming to my last study semester before i'm going for my practical training . hope i can do better this semester .
BTW ...
I'm so glad i passed . Quite happy with my result . At least so far i'm not failing and repeating any paper . At least it's only A and B in my result . That should be enough with my 'not so much' effort .  ^___^

I haven't pack my stuff yet . i'll do it tonight .
after done with my KDCA thing at 31st , I'll be staying with my hubby til the semester start . ( i'm sure he miss me a lot now ) heeeeeeeeee ~
it took quite a long way if i have to go home here again .
that's for now . it's freaking hot up here .
I'm going down for TV .
xoxo .

Original .

That was just me . Original . No make up , no lens , just simply me . This is the real me . And the guy next to me is one that hold me strong . effortless but deserve . I love him . Being original or not is not basically the big deal . what is important the trust that hold us tight . I hope i can continuously trust this guy and i hope this guy never give up on me . I love you and i mean it .

Thank You ... ^ ___ ^

On the good, the bad, the ugly The smiles, the laughs, the funny, Or all the things we put each other through It's for you for you for youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu Bee Bee Dee^^v


You make me happy whether you know it or not We should be happy that's what I said from the start I am so happy knowing you are the one That I want for the rest of my days For the rest of my days Your all of my daysBee Bee Dee


i'm in trouble.... i'm an addict.... i'm addicted to this girl.... Bee Bee Dee~


my gf.. Bee Bee Dee..is all mine~ ♥


l xxxx ♥ my gf~


i ♥ my hunee... Bee Bee Dee .......


kring.... kring.... kring..... hp bbunyi.... c Hunee blg da otw blik KP ody.... ^^


>>> Bee Bee Dee lots of ♥ ...........


u're oh so fine, my sweet-sweet Bee Bee Dee ^^


Ich liebe dich, so viel Bee Bee Dee..


I dont see anything interesting here... i just saw my everything...


a.k.a love u soooOOOOOOO damn much~!!! i'm going to die without u~!!!! huhuhuhu....T.T


owhsointoglydiadk ...




P/s : Maybe there are still some left out ... i just dont get to paste them in here ... But i always have those words kept in my mind ... and ... thank you . 

Bila saya rasa bosan ...

Haha ~
nie laa ... muka kebosanan yang agak teramat sangat ~
1st ... saya main mekap2 d rumah ... sbb xtw lg mw bt apa ...
lepas main mekap2 ... confirm la akan ambk gmbr kannn ???
Funny betul bla org teda kerjaan nie kannn ... ada2 jaa ...
skg ... perut mcm laparrr ~ cari mamam la dulu ~ ngeee ~

Opsyyy ~ ada lagi pla pic t'tngl ~ haha
saya npk mcm gemuk ow dlm last pic nie ... huhu
takutnya jd gemuk ... tp, saya mls sgt mw exercise ... control mkn ... mls sgt ...
tp ... hr demi hr ... tkt juga tgk tummy saya yg da makin comel ~ huhu
tk bole ka saya mkn apa jaa ... brapa byk jaa tp tk gemuk2 ? bosan la mcm nie ...
nway ~ hrp sgt saya x jd gemuk ... sbb ... lemak yg ada skg nie actually babyfat jaa ...
sbb ... kt kan maC muda ... klu da 30-an nanti bru la bahaya ckit ...
xpecialy klu tym tue da kawen n ada baby ...
tym tue maybe baru la saya akan sgt b'sungguh2 mjaga bdn n m'gawal mkn ...
bt masa skg nie ... santai dulu ... kt maC muda ... n hdp e2 harus dnikmati ...
jgn sbb nak cntk kt seksa diri ... cntk x bwa kita ke mana pun syg ~
yg penting skg ...
jgn berlebihan n jgn berkurangan sgt ...
~ habis ceta ~
   ^_____^

My Barbie ~

Everyone have their favorite friends ... same goes with me ... i basically have lots of friends ... but 4 of them is practically my favorite among all ... they are like my barbie ... my pretty barbie ... my babes ... whom i share everything with ... i share secret ... our story ... so many thing about us ...

Now ..  i miss them so much ... since now is the semester break ... we hardly see each other ... we gotta wait til the semester start then we can meet ... i believe we'll have so many thing to talk about ... we will have so many thing to share ~ can't wait to meet them !

Okay ... you must have been wondering who are these special girls ?  but, for those who already know me ... my classmates ... my friends ... they surely know who my barbie are ... i use to hang with them ...most of ... err ... all the time !  シ

Coming first on the line will be my Barbie-V ... doesn't matter who comes first and who comes last ... i still have same equal love for all of them ! Back to Barbie-V , some people told us ... we look alike ... but naa ~ we don't ... we just almost look alike ... but still we're two different person ... Barbie-V ... Call her Sylvia ... Thats her name ... we call her , Via ... her nickname ...

Via is quite silent ... most of the time ... its not that she rarely talk ... she just don't talk as much as we do ... she only talk when it is necessary ... maybe also depending on her mood ... but , when it comes to her right time to talk ... well , bet me , you can't stop her from talking ... however ... she's caring ... she take care of me once ... when i had terrible gastric ... thanks baby ~ i owe you that time ... Via is the youngest among us all ... maybe thats why ... she have so many things to learn !
i do admit ... i sometimes scold her ... ( if you're reading this baby . im sorry ... i scold you means i care about you . ) i scold her about what she wear ... about how she dress up ... about her pale make up ... about so many thing that just don't fit her right ... but , tell you , not only me .. the other barbie is doing the same thing too ... we care for each other okay ... ^___^
but yeah ~ thanks to our bad mouth ... she does learn a lot from us ... this also include study okay ... another thing , Via and me basically is a bestie before we met the rest of the barbie ... it's only two of us last time ... but now ... we are quite big number ... 5 ~

The next one will be this sweet little thing ... Barbie-Y ... @ Yana ~ she is cute isn't it ??? yeah ~ she is very cute ... not only her look ... as well as her personality itself ... but don't get her wrong ... she is fun and outgoing ... can be naughty and bitchy ... but , she is very kind and loyal to one ... just don't and never judge a book by its cover right ?? Yana is energetic ... daring ... if you don't know her ... you would be surprise with what she is capable of doing ... looking at her ... she is one sweet little thing ... but she is very determine in what she wanna do and she is even brave than what you think she can ever be !

She is very charming ... love to smile yet have a very beautiful smile ... she is very helpful ... she help me to do so many thing and teach me quite a lot ... i always call her when i need help ... yana ... yana ... and yana ... she is very good in saving ... she know how to budget the right amount when shopping ... she know how to choose the best price ... she is very considerate ... she is nice to me ... her calm and warm personality really make people remember her ... she don't care so much about other ... but many people mistake her ... mistake in judging her ... she is a good person ... wait til you know her ... then you can start judging , once you're close with her ... you can't never know how to get rid of her ... how to have a day without her ! i miss her so much !

Okay ~ guess who's that very hot gorgeous stuff ?? before i proceed talking about her ... you gotta have to see this such hot stuff ...

She is such a hot stuff right ??? Yup ... people said she look like Mrgan Fox ! yeah ... no doubt ... she is ... one glance almost look like Megan Fox ~ she is so sexy ... dangerously sexy ... she literally is one of the most prettiest girl i've ever met ... i mean one of my prettiest friends ... she is our Barbie-W...

Yup ... she is hot ... she is so model ... but she is still our Barbie-W ... she is never proud ... nor becoming such snobby ... she is so down to earth ... so very good personality ... she came all the way from Sarawak ... she is a sarawakian ~ she is very clever ... and very unexpected ... don't ever try to forecast her ... you can't ... she is very daring as well ... and even more daring than Yana ! But she have this one kind personality ... she is very generous ... she is very "sharing is caring" ... she is just so nice ... she taught me lots of thing ... including study ... she have been very helpful ... i share so many thing with her ... despite the prettiest ... she is one of the kindest person i've ever met as well ... im so glad i have a friend like her ... i miss having her around ... so badly ~ omg ... i think i almost forget to tell her name ... she is Wanie ~ our wanie bunny ...

 Alright ~ we can see ... Wanie , me ( ugly me ! fuck ! idk whats wrong with my face in that picture ! ) and yana ... who's the Rapunzel with her long beautiful hair ?? that's Barbie-S ...

that's her next to wanie ~ she is very fair very cute ! she is yet so adorable and fun to cuddle with ! she love to tell story and she have so many story to tell ... always have ! ^____^  she is a very independent girl ... which i always wanna be ... she is this fun outgoing teen ... but she is very matured ... she can be a very good housewife ... she can cook ! she can do housekeeping ! she's good okay ! she is brave ... driving all the way from home at night to our hostel just to pay a visit and help us with our assignment ... she is the one who always bring us here and there ... although she is not staying in the hostel with us ... but that don't give us distance ... we're still close ... and that's how we will always be ...

i love my friends ... i can be just who i am when im with them ...

I love them so much ... and i really appreciate our friendship ... sometimes , we do disagree with one another ... but thats how life is ... and that's also what make we close ... i love my barbie ... they always cheer me up ... and , no matter how many time im left out ... they never left me behind ... they will always be there ...
If you guys are reading this ... thank you for everything ... for every memory of this friendship ... i love being with you guys ! and if ever i did anything wrong to offend ... im truly sorry ... i love pink as much as i love you guys ! thanks you for being supportive ... thank you to always understand ! you are my friend of a lifetime ! i love you guys ~ xoxo ! ♥ ♥ ♥
lots of love from me ... Barbie-G ... ☺

Shocked ~

OOMY ~ maybe i have this kind of phobia...when the person im texting does not reply my message and doesn't answer my call...i'll have so many thing in my mind...im started to feel extremely worry...panic without any clear reason actually...can't concentrate...so freaking anxious...like what happen just now...

" i text him but he didn't reply...i keep texting, but still silent...he suppose to be home by this time...be said he will stop by the market to buy some groceries...he didn't reply our last conversation...omg ~ until this time...of course im worry ! idk what is it in my mind..i just have so many thing...im afraid if anything bad will happen to him...who knows right??? i called him few times but he didn't answer me...gosh...i can't even sit still you know...im waiting patiently...keep my eye on the hp screen...gosh...where is him???

AT LAST ~ my phone rang ! omg ! what a relieve when i heard his voice ! apparently...he still have unfinished business at the office...he went to the terminal to pick up cars...and his phone was on silent...and he's driving...he said he is in rush til he can't text and let me know about it...god ~ im really glad i heard his voice...now then i can breath...calm...and chill ~ "

OO gly ~ maybe that was just another over reacting me...i am very concerned...and sometimes...too concern...a.k.a concern too much .... i can be so dramatic ~ so here and there...this isn't the first time...almost all the time...not only worrying my hubby...same thing goes if my mommy does not respond to my call...who ever person i care about...im so freak out...i don't wanna loss people i love...im not ready...and i can never be ready...i love them...i will never trade them with anything ever...they are my life...the reason for my every tomorrow ...♥

worry me ~

 p/s : Just don't freak me out again kay ~   =_=   ☠

thank you baby...

Diaswilson John  >  Bee Bee Dee

Although you are beautiful, I rarely tell you so. Hearing a word I LOVE YOU from me is like waiting for an eclipse. But girl, true love doesn't need to be told. Some says action speaks louder than words. And now that it's your birthday it's nice to let you know that… “Multiply it by infinity, take it to the depths of forever and you'll still only have a glimpse of how much I love you.” Happy birthday… sweet 20th… wishing you all the best and may all your wishes come true. God bless you…


p/s : He is not a sweet talker...He said this on my birthday...he posted on my facebook wall...i wanna keep it in here so that i wont forget he ever said this...cause...this sound so not him...and so not ordinary...thanks love...your words are nothing to be compare with what you've bring to my life...3 words as guarantee...i love you... ^_____^   ♥ ♥ ♥   

by mr.boyfriend

He just can be so sugary sweet and so salty sour ~ but he still make me so crazy over him...my one and my only partner for life... ^____^     ♥  ♥  ♥   

OOMY ~

im so glad hubby is not mad at me ~ i thought he was mad...very glad im wrong...again...i think too much right? huh...so silly ~ all in all....im so happy i dont piss him off...so glad ~ ! ^____^

im just done taking my bath btw...i was looking for inspiration to blog right now...was thinking what topic do i have for today...still can't get any in my brain right now...maybe i need to browse around and read to look for more inspiration...that's how we'll make good article...not copy and paste from others work...but copy and paste from our heart...what our heart says are simply the best word ever...trust me...write with your heart...you will love it ~ ^____^      xOxO !

well behaved women rarely make history

i posted " well behaved women rarely make history" on my facebook wall today...that is a quote by Marilyn Monroe...
Yup...as for me...the statement is true...and i am one of not well behaving women...its not that i wanna say i want  to make history...this statement basically mean...we rarely find well behaved women...nobody is perfect..nobody is perfectly well behaved...mostly everybody have their very own bad attitude...bad habit...the well behaved women is so one in a million...

one of my very bad attitude is...i find it very hard to trust people...im always being suspicious...i think too much...even things that should not crossed my mind...this include my boyfriend...i tell myself not to think of anything silly...not to bother to know so much about everything...but i can't especially when it comes about my boyfriend...i think i just pissed him off...yup...again with my silly this and that doesn't make sense questions...i know i shouldn't have asked...but, yea...i just did...he already have so many thing to think about...work again...and here i am...his very silly girlfriend...why can't i just believe everything he said? no,no...this isn't the topic now...i mean, why do i bother to know so much about his past...!

everything have been so good...but because of my stupid silly question...i turn the sunny day to gloomy...i should have stop being silly...why do i fucking care so much...we hate to think about our boyfriend's past...really hate it...idk why...okay...let just say...no matter i am number what after his ex...as long as im the last one...that should be good...i wanna stop thinking about it...and i promised myself...i'll never bring a fight because of this stupid matter again..and if i did...i'll knock my head on the wall ! that's a pinky promise from me....i should think of way to say sorry to my mr.boyfriend later...im so not just done...im well done ~

my posts ...

Basically...how many entry i can make per day???
Depending on my mood...if i feel like writing...writing and keep writing...
then i wont stop til i get enough... ^_____^

i talks about almost everything...some of my update was not important at all...i just simply wrote cause i wanna express it ~ because i have no one i can mumble on...blogging is just the right place i can throw everything up...
so...it tells everyone that...
a faithful blogger might be a loner...blog seems to be our bestfriend...where we express about most of the thing ...

BTW...im still seriously hungry...when is the time for dinner...really can't wait...maybe im trying to distract my mind including my tummy from thinking about food...i think im fail...food is still what comes first...gosh ~ gimme a bucket of kfc...i might eat them all...by myself....
that is one thing not good for our diet when we wait til we're extremely hungry for food....
when we're hungry...we can eat like evrything ! the whole meal for two !
OOMY ~ please...dinner time !

tummy singing ~

im so hungry OMG ~
i feel like wanna eat everything....
im too hungry and grab cookies to eat...
still can't help ! 911 ~

Funny ....
that was how starving people probably look like...
OOMY ~ i wanna eat nice food tonight cause
i seriously need them....! rescue please ~ *sob...sob...sob*

Hair...

How i wish i didn't cut my hair last time....it must be longer now...i want my hair to grow long so badly... :(
but...my hair is in quite bad condition now...hair damage problem...congrats me...i don't give well treatment to my hair...now then i regret it, i stop to colour my hair...for this time being...i prefer it black...changing the hair colour will make my hair's condition even worse...i can't afford even worse hair damage again... =_=

Now, Im using ellips hair treatment...my friend told me to try as the hair treatment work on her...so...i really hope it will work on me either...huhu

Really hope it will make my hair much better...because at least this is affordable...only cost me less than rm10...can't really afford hair treatment at the saloon...mommy sure will be mad at me...she will blame it on me to do so many thing with my hair at the first place...same goes with my hubby...he is even worse...better not to talk about it...he never like when i colour my hair last time...he said it will bring nothing than hair damage...you'll see what happen when you wont listen...now...yea ~ screw me...but never mind cause he just never will 100% understand what i want...im use to it...maybe i should've listen to him...but i just wanna try something new...so i don't regret it anyway ~ take it as a lesson right? ^____^

MISSION :
I will take very good care of my hair from now onwards...
I will not going to colour it  UNTIL it get better...
I will avoid rubber band...
I will only straighten my hair twice a week...( should avoid frequent usage of heat tools )
I will really take care of it...and i'll never change my shampoo again no matter what kind of advertisement try to influence me ! no !
I will consistently using the hair treatment...

Wish me luck ~ ! i really want my hair to get better again ~ !!!

At last ~ !

Finally ~ i solve the problem... Whoa !! a very simple thing make me so happy... 'Your web page title' is no longer appear in my browser tab...i've been trying so hard to solve the problem on why is it appear like that...i seriously have been browsing here and there...still can't find the right solution...finally i did it....!!!

Never thought it was so simple...i just need to edit the text in the HTML
like this...

 <script language="javascript">
// http://loternchern.blogspot.com
// loternchern@gmail.com
var msg = " ƒαιяÿ ταℓεṡ dяεαмṡ ღ ";
var pos = 0;
var spacer = " ... ";
var time_length = 100;
function ScrollTitle()
{
document.title = msg.substring(pos, msg.length) + spacer + msg.substring(0, pos);
pos++;
if (pos > msg.length) pos=0;
window.setTimeout("ScrollTitle()",time_length);
}
ScrollTitle();
</script> 

actually i already give up on it...i was up to put sticker on the blog when i surprisingly found that silly thing i've searching all over ~ really happy i solve it...haha ~ ^_____^

Poser ??

Do we hate poser??
Okay...basically...no one like to be copy right??
we tend to hate when people copy us...

what we said is repeated again by someone...
our style is copied by someone else...
she like what i like...she copy me...
she do just like i do...she's poser...

Okay ~
lets make everything clear...
maybe we do hate poser..but at least with good reason why...
if the person copy what we do and take them as theirs...it is no longer poser...it's called stealing...
but if the person do like what we do...it is basically...learning...

Life is about copying...it is part of learning...we can't simply hate poser...because they're learning...and as long as they don't bring any harm to us..there's nothing to be mad of...there are different between poser and thief...if they're trying to be us...then that is not good...they can learn to do like we do...but CAN'T be who we are...

So...i don't hate poser..i'd be glad...if we are capable enough to influence other...it should be a good thing right??? ^_____^ but as for me...i just love being myself...if i were given a choice i wouldn't want to be anybody else...i just want to be myself...BUT...to learn from other is a different thing.. watch and learn...that's how your life improve ~ !

Sing a Song...

Wouldn't change a thing...

It's like he doesn't hear a word I say,
His mind is somewhere far away,
And I don't know how to get there,
It's like,
(She's way too serious)
All he wants is to chill out,
(She's always in a rush)
He makes me wanna pull all my hair out,
(And interrupting)
Like he doesn't even care,
(Like she doesn't even care)


You,
me
We're face to face
But we don't see eye to eye
Like fire and rain
(Like fire and rain)
You can drive me insane
(You can drive me insane)


But I can't stay mad at you for anything
We're Venus and Mars
(We're Venus and Mars)
We're like different stars
(Like different stars)
But you're the harmony to every song I sing
And I wouldn't change a thing


She's always trying to save the day
Just wanna let my music play
She's all or nothing
But my feelings never change
(Why, do you try to read my mind?)
I try to read her mind
(It's not good to psychoanalyze)
She tries to pick a fight
To get attention
That's what all of my friends say
(That's what all of my friends say)


You,
Me
We're face to face
But we don't see eye to eye
Like fire and rain
(Like fire and rain)
You can drive me insane
(You can drive me insane)


But I can't stay mad at you for anything
We're Venus and Mars
(We're Venus and Mars)
We're like different stars
(Like different stars)
But you're the harmony to every song I sing
And I wouldn't change a thing


When I'm yes, she's no
When I hold on, he just lets go


We're perfectly imperfect
But I wouldn't change a thing, no
We're like fire and rain
(Like fire and rain)
You can drive me insane
(You can drive me insane)


But I can't stay mad at you for anything
We're Venus and Mars
(We're Venus and Mars)
We're like different stars
(Like different stars)
But you're the harmony to every song I sing
And I wouldn't change a thing


But I can't stay mad at you for anything
We're Venus and Mars
(We're Venus and Mars)
We're like different stars
(Like different stars)
But you're the harmony to every song I sing
And I wouldn't change a
Wouldn't change a thing

I always like this song...it really has something to do with me and him...this song is so US ~
We're totally opposite...he is him and i am me...he have his way and i have mine...idk what make us together...what make us...US ~ ^_____^

blogging to express not to impress ~

That word sound just so good...yet so true... Yup...blogging to express not to impress...that was just exactly the reason i love blogging...i just have so many things to express... ^____^

To make people impress...in my opinion is...not to impress people with what you have and what you own...not to be showing off with all the expensive stuffs you bought...neither to show off with your big house...your money....or...your beauty... Yes...you are pretty...beautiful...charming and always caught the crowd's attention...so...what???
is that really a good reason for you to show off? to act like you are so better than anyone else? is it???
Okay ~ i love one with down to earth personality...humble...normal ( yes, that was how normal people should act )

Frankly speaking...i really hate snobbish bitch...
you're not that fabulous anyway...why need to show off so much???

How snobbish bitch act :

1. They talk like they've got the best personality.
2. Self-compliment. ( again and again )
3. Look down on other people
4. Let the whole wide world know about their new "Charles & Keith sandal"...
5. Trying so much to SHINE...
6. Materialistic
7. Seeking attention...
8. They're just simply show off...

I don't practically hate this kind of people...i just...not really comfortable with them...i keep telling myself...i will never wanna be one of this people...if i were meant to have anything to show off...i would go for let  people notice it...let people give you compliment...and never ask and never ACT like asking for it...
it is not...really not necessary for me to let the entire people on earth know i have bought an i-phone right??( just an example ) what for? will they top up for me?? ;p
But,
that is one thing about life...proud people are everywhere...just because they drive big car they wont make way to the small car passing...just because they ride on mini cooper they wont bother about the motorcycle  turn to go...just because they can afford what ever they want, they don't care about alms...they don't care about giving...just because they're pretty hot stuffs they think they can impress everyone...they tend to forget...it was just temporary...
I saw the true beauty from the inside...when one person have a piece of sincere heart...caring and lovable...more to giving than taking...the best personality is left for others to judge instead of judging ourself... A piece of sincere heart need not to be show because it will shine itself...

Good Morning ~ !

Im home... ~ ^_____^
happy to be home...
arrive at about 11pm last night...
sempat lagi tengok wayang...
Sanggul Beracun... ;)

Random old pic actually ~ heee

chaxxx ~

funny looking me...OOMY ~

i took these photos in hubby's lappy webcam so he can take a look at it when he miss me...i was about to be send home soon...after hubby take his short nap...

he is zzZ next to me...

hehe.....^____^

chaxxx ~ that's it for now....

Mr and Mrs in love...

Thats my Mr.boyfriend...he's hot and cold...hahaha ~ is that even need to be mention???
This guy...is not ordinary...yet not special...but he is one and only...
Im really glad i have him to be the love of my life...

He is not the best boyfriend on earth...he is not the-best-man win...
but he is just him...a man who share half of his heart with me...
since we met...many things have change...and frankly...
i owe him a lot...and one day i promise...i'll make him proud...

Thank god for giving him as my company...
thanks god for giving him to share every moment of this short life...
im so thankful...and i know...i will never regret this...

When i blow my candle...while you sing happy birthday...you asked me to make a wish...
you know what is my wish?
I hope this is the guy who will always bring the birthday cake for me every single year...the same voices singing...the same person who get the first bite of the cake...

It has been a year with you...it almost be our two years...
Let's keep fighting for this...we can do it...
I love you hubby...thank you for everything...