Devil with Angel's face

this word sound really familiar to me.
someone i ever love so much said this to me. she said i was a devil but with angel's face.
i think that was a gift then :)
i'm not really a bad person. but i'm not really a good person as well.
my Zodiac said : A Taurus will always feel lonely even surrounded with so many people.
Am i? i do have doubt with that prediction. because i'm not basically lonely, maybe i just like to be alone or staying in my own safe space.

maybe there's one thing about me i really hates. i always had to lose people i love. every time i started to love somewhere somehow i eventually lost them. but so far, my boyfriend is still here. through thick and thin he is always here for me and i'm really grateful for that. please don't make me lose him. let me keep him forever.

maybe the only way for me to be strong is to pretend my angel's face when everything has gone wrong. when everything is too late to be fix. but i am not a betrayer. i just made a mistake. i think somehow in my life. i have a trust issue. maybe the saying is right that i shouldn't trust anyone but myself. because the moment i actually put my 100% trust, it's broken. so i figure it out maybe the prediction of the Zodiac,the fact which says i'm a loner basically mean i shouldn't trust anyone ever again. i just should keep everything for myself. that's the only way i wont lose anyone i love again.

but still,in my defense, i'm not a devil. most of the time many people misunderstood my silence. if only people stop assuming, things will be better. i do believe you pay the price for what you bought right? you start it first, you gave me topics to talk about.
if i bite you,i don't expect you to stand still and not bite me back. you bite back. it's even. fair and square. don't be mad? are we cool?

that's just the thing. if you don't hear anything exactly coming from my mouth and directly said to you, can you not assume? because it might be not you.
this world is a creepy place okay. where people loves to see everyone against each other. why?
because, you give them drama to watch and gossip to talk about.
i had enough of this. i just simply give up. because it's worth nothing at the end. seriously.

my conclusion will be, so i let it be. whatever people wanna say about me i just leave it to them. i'm tired to prove them wrong. let them just say i'm a devil with angel's face. it's okay. at least that innocent face can be a real charmer...  ^______________^

but seriously, remember this, i'm not that type of people who like to hurt other people intentionally.

 ~peace~ :)