i know this day will come...
if i were ask to explain why...i can't.
simply because honestly i don't know...
the story starts when i met them approximately year ago...
we started to feel we have so much in common...
we started to get close until very close...
we share a lot of secrets together, from small to big ones.
at one time,i can actually felt...
we do love each other :)
people said everything always has an end.
maybe this is how it will end.
between us,strangers again.
is this misunderstanding? are we confused? i've no idea...
i never walk away...i'm still here,but as the matter of fact...
i feel like i was forgotten. like i'm not one of them anymore.
so i started to create distance between us. when i feel like i'm no longer part of the team, i back off. myself.
maybe that is one thing i shouldn't do at the very first place.
however inside me is still the same.
it's just the awkwardness between us is what i can't stand.
so i decided to stay at my own space, and i realize i don't only have them,i still have the rest.
actually they didn't change,so do i...the situation did and that's what bring us apart.
when we started not to get along anymore. there comes the drama.
we start to talk behind about each other. good things bad things you name it.
the truth is,there's nothing to talk about actually...
only because we don't hang around like how it use to be,that's just the whole topic is all about.
so there goes so many story...about this and that...
and from there...slowly...that awkward feeling change to hate...
i'm just a normal person. i do mistakes. a lot of time in life.
i do have my own temper. just like the rest of the human.
i can't always remain calm. i'm not a doll. i do have feelings.
i got confused too. i can easily misunderstood your actions towards me.
there goes assumption. when people start assume without even trying to learn the fact...
misunderstanding take place...lack of communication because we don't talk anymore...
from there...seems like everything has gone wrong. nothing goes right...
and this is what happen now...assumption by assumption...
it actually result to hatred. from best friend to a bunch of bitch talk shit about each other.
truth is,this thing doesn't even need to happen.
because it do not bring any good to any one.
the only thing i regret is...
i once adore my best friend...
i once love all of them...
i once defend them when so many people go against us...
i once trusted them as real friends...
but now...this is what happen.
personally, i feel so bad not because i lost them but simply because we're wrong about each other all this while.
maybe now i finally saw the whole picture of it...
all in all...
thank you for the memories between us...
it is the only thing about us that will always last forever.
i won't forget this half-way friendship.
as for me, it never ends. because i'll pause my memory of all of you only at the happy moments.
i might be not strong enough to handle the awkwardness of us...
but i'm very strong to forget and not to even bother of how much you guys may hate me.
i don't play innocent and i'm dare enough to say that i do contribute in bringing us apart.
because i give up on us. and for so many reason. i'm sorry :')
if it happen to be any one of you is reading this...
for each and everything i said and did to offend you...i'm truly sorry.
for everything i did wrong, forgive me.
because no matter how bad things had happened between us now,
we once care for each other just like how best friend should be :)
every time i saw a Barbie doll...
will reminds me so much of my barbie...
each of them is beautiful with unique character and bitchy and smart in their very own way. BTW that's include me! :p
one thing just simply goes wrong is...
just not like in fairy tales...they don't live TOGETHER happily ever after...
but the memory does. that's our story.
back of the days...barbie do exist and i'm one of them! ^____^
